27 October 2016


a family roadtrip. 
a run. a walk; 
headphones on, the world off. 
just you and the beats. 
no thoughts, no speech.

we have countless music-listening possibilities today, we buy or download it, put it in playlists, make covers of it, and never run out of it because there's plenty of great artists and songs to listen to.

everyday when i leave my house, i check if i have two things; my phone and my headphones (and a hand cream, but that doesn't really go with the point i'm trying to make).
i put my headphones on and go out without anybody interrupting me, i do whatever i came to do and go back home exactly the same way. alone.
headphones are a great pretext for not having to speak to people you see and know. you can simply ignore everybody when you have headphones on.

i go running once in a while and turn my workout playlist even before i leave the house. i take the regular track and when im done i do this thing of running the last 30 meters as fast as i can. and when i reach the finish line (it's an electricity box) i stop and gasp out. breathe out so heavily i wish nobody will be passing at that moment. as i stand there the music is still on and i keep it playing until i reach the door knob of my home.

the point of this post was not the last thirty meters of my irregular running routine though. it was the one time i made a change. i was finishing my workout and my legs were already tired and couldn't move properly because i was exhausted from the week. so while i was sprinting i tripped up and in order to balance myself and to not fall on my face i did a weird move with my hands and accidentally pulled down my headphones.

it made me mad at first because it's usually the last thirty meters i enjoy the most. but as was trying to put them back in and at the same time untangle them from my t-shirt i actually got to walk with no music in my ears for like five seconds.

and i breathed. and walked, and perceived the beauty of the world as it was. totally uninterrupted, suddenly peaceful.
what if the music we play to not let people interrupt us interrupts us itself?
i know, it's cool now to hate everybody and wear black but i feel like we're slipping the reality through our fingers. the world we get to have all around us is extraordinary and we voluntarily choose to ignore it?
don't get me wrong, the music is a great thing but when was the last time you talked to a stranger on a bus?


18 August 2016


hello. first of all, sorry. i did not want this to happen and i hope there wont ever be such a huge pause again. but anyway - there's this post i want to share with you because i think music is something we all have inside of ourselves and it can make us say things words are not capable of. 

...so one of the first weeks of summer i went on a camp. it was a tennis camp (to bring you a closer description and explain: i'd played tennis since i was 5 and then gave it up because i was useless but i still go to the camps each year because i just adore their atmosphere). there is this bizzare combination of people of literally all ages with the thing that: it does not matter there. whether your 8 or 19 you can still fit in and have fun. so one of the first days where it is not that relaxed yet, there were people in our room (i don't know how this happens but somehow our room is every year one of the places people hang out at). and out of the blue my sister grabbed a guitar (are there to b's or just one?) ...and started playing. 

at first we had a little trouble figuring out where to sit so everyone can see the lyrics and we argued about which song to play but in a few minutes we've been all singing our lungs out, being incredibly happy. it is funny though how people you'd never imagined singing (since many of them are those sports people who dedicate their whole lives to whatever sport they love (im not one of them in case you'd think so)) actually do sing and have balls to do it even though they think they can't or they really can't.

the breaking point for me was when one of my friends i only get to see on camp looked me in the eyes-in the middle of one song and she kept looking for a while. it kind of felt like those colorful streams of ligh that like connect powers of poeple in cartoons or like the ones in 'my little pony' when they figure out how to bring rainbow back to the ponyville (no? nobody's seen that one?) and connect these light streams coming from each horse's horns and boom! it's done. well, this was basically the same thing, except for the light streams...and ponies...and all. but still it felt alike and it's been so fulfilling at that moment it still makes me excited even after two months. 

the look was fascinating. there were literally so many emotions in it. it was the combination of poeple and the music and the singing that made us both stare and share pure joy that appereaed in our eyes.  it was a completely unique experience and brought the most of us together so there was not that i-haven't-seen-you-for-a-year-but-lets-pretend-it's-still-the-same-and-that-i-have-something-to-talk-about barriere that comes on camps sometimes.

so what is the message?
...sing. go grab a guitar and sing. sing with your friends or family. sing with your pets even though they can't. ha. sing because it's great and it is able to create uniqueness of a moment nothing else can. go sing, just go.


btw this is what i was talking about when mentioning the look in the eyes. this is what it felt like. anybody who'd have comments to what movies i watch please keep them to yourself. i've grown up on this movie. (it's called my little pony:the runaway rainbow in case you were interested)

10 July 2016


what is happening : i am posting a recipe?

actually yes. this is something i've been drinking in these hot days which would otherwise be unsurvivable. and i gotta say i became kinda obssesed with it so i thought it might be a good thing to share. it is super tasty, easy to make and it doesn't even have any sugar in it, check it out.

you will need:
- green tea by your choice
- a lemon
- a cucumber
- elderberry syrup (not necessary)
- and water

first you have to make the tea: use whichever green tea you like. (did you know green tea is great for you metabolism and helps your body digest better?) put it in the fridge to cool it down.
next cut 2 or 3 slices of lemon and 3 or 4 slices of cucumber and put it in the glass you will drink from.
when your green tea is cool pour it in the glass with the lemon and cucumber (add elderberry syrup if you like it more sweet) and voila. you're done.

be sure to make a lot of the tea so you can refill the glass. when you keep the tea in the fridge it's usable even after two days.
i hope you'll find this tasty because i sure do.